I believe that everyone has their own dreams. Some of them could fulfil their dreams and some of them…….that one will be becoming soon “Me”.

“Emptiness is a balance in my space; Architect is a unity of all emptiness for me”

It was all started with one dream, one hope and one way. I’ve been expecting for enter to one university when I’m 14 years old. Now I’m 18 years old. I lost one year in Russia. And I never thought that there will be a chance for me to lose another year. I can’t accept with it. I may never ever get that chance, but I have to find another place for studying new. There are 2 Universities: One is The King Mongkut’s university of technology Thonburi and two is the king Mongkut’s institute of technology Lardkrabang. For the two is also the same. I have no idea that I can enter there by a competition with more than 500 students without Professional skills and the high marks in school exams that I have never got!!!!!  And the number one from the above I got Quota from that university: Quota for Good student. (May be) In fact, my marks in school exams are not very good like the others esp. in Science and Math!!!! But I got it because they send to the students in the school who have top ten marks in the 12^th class. That was not me but just only a little people who were interested about it. Then they asked us for interviewing test. I don’t know the result now…………

“The contrast makes no repetition, but contrast is lost in my emptiness”

The way to be an Architect begins to become far away from me; First just only a little and then becomes less and less and less……I’m waiting for the least……I’ve known since when I did the Architectural test for my most expected University, SILPAKORN, Four years for all my expectation and inspiration. Those days will come find me soon!!! I know my limit.

            “My life is now such an empty space, Hard to breathe without all the dreams, hopes and inspiration”  

It seems like nothing now……..I felt nothing……I’m sick and tired of them all. I try not to think about it as much as I can but worthless because when I feel my dream is breaking down in front of me. I feel sad. I hurt. And all I just want only one thing that is

“APPLYING TO THE MOST EXPECTED UNIVERSITY OF ME BY ONLY DIRECT EXAMS OF QUOTA”

I just expected for:

1. Be good girl and student.
2. Entering to the most expected university of me and for only studying in Architectural program.
3. Graduation in Bachelor and Master Degree from the university in Architectural program with good Marks. (B.Arch and M.Arch)
4. Applying for good jobs.

But…………..They become just fading awayyyy from me now………..