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1月17日

The impact of Reason

“Bounding to the future!!!! The bright future is waiting for me!!!” (Really)

Okay!!! I have nothing to say anymore. Today is such a beautiful day!! May be!!!! 55555++ I just woke up despite this is about 12.16 o’clock. Ummm…Now I realize I’ll do the best thing for my life!!! For many reason 555+++But for main reason is now I adore engineering students from KASETSART University so much 55555+++ I know why, cuz on the last Thursday I went to KASETSART University, it had an Open house!!! (For students who wanted to know more about university and faculties or departments.) I went there with students in my class about 10 people!!! 55555++ Before we’d back to our home. It might be almost 15.00 o’clock. We went to Faculty of Science…but before, we passed Faculty of Engineer!!! OH MY GODDD….!!!!! ……A LOT OF ENGINEERING STUDENTS (Only boys cuz this faculty a lot of boys study!!!)……They sat in front of their faculty and I COULD PROMISE NOBODY WHO SAT IN FRONT OF THEIR FACULTY WAS NOT SO VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL!!!! At that time I couldn’t stand anymore….I screamed a lot with my 2-3 younger friends!! “Ahhhh...!!! Oh my god!! What the fuck with them they’re so very very very beautiful!!! I’m the first one who saw all of them 5555++ And I said Hey Hey!!! I would get off the bus nowww…..Some of them said Hey P’ SOM calm down calm down!!!! 55555555555++++ WANNA SCREAM ANYMORE!!!! BUT you know?? We screamed a lot until "All of engineering students" turned back to look at our car cuz of our CRAZY SOUND!!! 55555+++ We were so shy but it was so worthy to see all of them!!!! 55555+++ ^ ^

My friend studies there!!! He never said to me that there are a lot of beautiful boys like this!! He said only his friend is so very beautiful and showed his photo to me!!! He said that Engineering students (boys) like Architectural students (girls) 5555+++ Then I decided to study at KASETSART University!!! 55555++ Nooo…!!! Just kidding!!! 555++ I’d still like to study at the same place that I wanted that is SILPAKORN University even though I missed a chance for direct admission examination of Faculty of Architecture!!! Then I’m waiting for National education test for University again!!! I’m reading a lot of books!!!! I just want to draw and sketch picture but I don’t have a time!!! T_T

ADORING ENGINEERING STUDENTS TOO MUCH!!! Actually, for a long time cuz they’re very good in Mathematics and physics ( I promise more than me) and they’ll work with Architect 5555++ especially Civil Engineer!!!!!! 5555555555555++++ but when I went to KU!!! Oh My Godd!! I know the place that when I’ve a leisure time where I go!!! I’ll go to find my friend!!! 55555+++

Woowww……And now I’ve many things to do like everyday in this moment. Doing chemistry project and Reading all books about Social lessons, Thai lessons and “MATHEMATICS” It’s such a very big problem!!!

I finished reading Science already. That’s so good for me!!! You know before I read this…and after I read were so different!!! Before reading I was very stupid cuz I forgot all of it 5555++ when teacher asked about it, I could not answer!!! 55555+++ but after I read I think I understand more cuz I can understand what teacher asked and said to me!! Now I realize, this is such a strong point for reading books!!!! 5555++ Then in this moment I read it a lot!!! For ADDMISSION SYSTEM (university’s examination). We’ve Original national education test in next 44 days. (Ahhh!!!! I’ve 2 big subjects left) And Advance national education test in next 51 days!!! (A lot of things that I’ve to practice 5555+++ I’ll die now)

For this reason that’s why I can realize and it makes my life better!!!! This is the impact of Reason!!! 5555+++ I have to chase my future not my past!!! Nothing's last forever….About the bad things and non-sensible story or thing or person!! I forgot all!!! There is nothing to think about them at all.

"If love is such a beautiful thing, we can use this love to be your inspiration and bring about your successful dreams; whereas, if love is such a poison, don’t let this to harm you at all! You have to get it away!!! Cuz it never makes you feel better and this is not your inspiration but it’ll be such a barrier….or DEVIL!!!!! Nobody wants to let the DEVIL come through your heart!!!! (This could be anytime when you feel down.)"

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1月15日

Brushing aces…Leaving black and gray!!!

First of all…I’d like to tell about all my life nowww….after I haven’t updated this space for a long timeeeee……..(May be I just quite a bit forget it already 555++)

About my life in school is so normal( I mean it’s just boring like everyday….but we’ve only 1 month left in the school…That’s gonna be great for me!!! 555++) And now we’re waiting for the result of middle examinational term that we got the test….I just knew only I got 15/20 marks for Biology; it was a little bad for me…And also chemistry I got 15/20 marks….It was a bit okay…but I still thinking that I might do it better!!!! And ummm….Our most important thing for us the 12^th class students is

STUDYING IN UNIVERSITY&FACULTY WHICH WE WANT!!!!

Now I’d say I’m the one of them….Actually I should have been since last year!!! I can say that it’s bad for me…cuz I missed my almost important thing in my school life!!!

I MISSED FINISHING THE 12^TH CLASS WITH ALL MY FRIENDS!!! We studied with each other as longest 8 years some of them 12 years and even though some of them I’ve just known for 2-3 years but it has been such a good time to know them….but I missed finishing last year school with them at all.

I MISSED BEING THE LAST YEAR HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT FOR 1 YEAR!!! All they’d gotta do and think….It’s not to bad too much cuz this year I’m doing all the things that my friend did last year!!! While I just wasted my time in RUSSIA!!!! I got nothing from there I can say except A little language, A little of friends and A little experience….WHAT WAS AFS EXPERIENCE HELP ME??? I can say NOTHING!!! When I backed from Russia, AFS Thailand gave all the students and also me that we finished our missions in Russia even studying, language and living there. But WHEN I GAVE IT TO UNIVERSITY THAT I WANT TO STUDY!!! THEY DID NOT CONSIDER ME AT ALL BECAUSE I HAVE A LITTLE OF MARKS FOR 5 SEMESTERS IN SCHOOL!!!! Some of them said that NO IT’S NOT A LITTLE, its okay for student who studies in Mathematics and Science program in high school!!! …..EXPERIENCE??? WHAT IS IT??

I LOST ALMOST EVERYTHING AND I GOT NOTHING BACK!!! WHAT WAS I LOST???? I should say EVERYTHING…..Yes I GOT NOTHING BACK FROM THERE!!! T H I S I S M Y L I F E ? ? ? Hmm!!

My feeling for now is so bad!!! Today is just the bad day!!! I think everyone should have bad days. It’s so common…But for me I have bad day everyday!!! Hmmm!!! Ahh!!! About one thing I just wanna say “HATE” is a strong word……………But………“I REALLY REALLY REALLY DON’T LIKE YOU”!!!!

I don’t have even good memories about you!!! Actually it has been so long about this non-sensible story…..How many time that I have been felt the hell like this??? THIS MUST STOP!!!! THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME THAT I WOULD SAY AND FEEL LIKE THIS!!!! I know all everything…The more I know, the more I don’t care….IT’S NON-SENSE!!! My everyday life is too much for me to feel pain!!! So why?? Why do I feel the pain even more and more??? If you read this I hope you will understand me….I LEAVE YOU FOREVER!!!! What you do think about me I know all!!! And I don’t feel in that way anymore.

I know…I know you don’t feel in the way like I ever felt about you!!! I KNOW!!! And it’s too late for me to care!!! I don’t care!!! I should say!!! So don’t you think that there is a chance for us to see each-other again!!! I can say!!! I know you think like me; you just never want to see me again!! 5555++ So do me!!!! Okay!!! This will be the last time that I say about you!!!!!!

YOU ARE NOT MY BREATH THAT WHEN I LOSE I WILL DIE, IF YOU CAN BE MY BREATH; I PROMISE I COULD BE….BRAD PITT’S…..BREATH.

YOU ARE NOT EVERYTHING THAT MEANS TO ME.

YOU ARE WORTHLESS FOR ME, YOUR BEAUTY, YOUR PRETTY, AND YOUR GRACE ARE SO VEIN FOR ME AS MUCH AS YOU ARE!!!!

THEY ARE ALL NEVER IMPORTANT FOR ME CUZ I KNEW THAT I NEVER MEAN A THING TO YOU AT ALL!!!!

NOW YOU KNOW ABOUT OUR SUMMATION;

YOU DON’T LIKE ME 5555+++ ALL PEOPLE IN THE WORLD KNOW THIS.

I DON’T LIKE YOU 5555++ MAY BE MORE THAN DON’T LIKE. I promise “HATE” is a strong word that I don’t want to say now but one day I’LL SAY THIS SOON!!!! NOW I’D SAY I DON’T CARE YOU ANY AT ALL!!! I’M STUPID 55555++ BUT I DON’T WANT TO BE STUPID MORE!!! THANK YOU FOR MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!!! NOTHING TO YOU AND NOTHING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING I DID…I’LL AMEND NOW THAT WAS NOT ME!!!!! MY STUPID DID IT!!!!...........

Finally!!! YOU WILL NOT SEE ME AGAIN IN EITHER THIS WORLD OR NEXT WORLD!!!! I’LL NOT SEE YOU!!!! Cuz I know you don’t want to see me. THEN YOU WILL NOT SEE ME FOREVER!!!!

THE PLACE WHERE I LIVE IS WITHOUT YOU FROM NOW AND THE PLACE WHERE YOU LIVE, WHERE YOU WERE WILL BE WITHOUT ME FOREVER!!!!

I can say!!! And I will not say good bye to you cuz it’s worthless for me to say that good word to an unworthy person!!!! I will think that we never know each other…you know actually I forgot all of you for a long time….I mean good things that you did. (I think it so very extremely super little 5555++) Also bad things that you did are in my scars 5555+++ but today it’s so bright day cuz I will forget all!!! I should say!!!

IF YOU WANT TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT, LET DO IT….THERE’S NO REASON TO ANNOUNCE TO EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD THAT YOU…blah blah blah…FOR NOTHING!!!! YOU KNOW I HURT FOR A LONG TIME SINCE I KNEW YOU; MY BEST FRIENDS WERE ONLY THE LONELINESS, THE PAIN AND TEARS!!! YOU DON’T CARE ME BEFORE, I DON’T CARE YOU LATER!!!!

IT’S SO GOOD FOR ME!!! THIS IS MY HAPPY ENDING!!!!

AND IF YOU THINK I'M THINKING OF YOUR VALUE HERE, YOU'RE THE ONE WHO IS LOSING CONTROL!!!!!

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